memory.

Lama aku tak post something yang serius kan. Aku tulis ni sebab recently...banyak betul benda yang berlaku kepada kehidupan aku la senang cite. Ok. Aku dicop sebagai seorang yang xberguna dan xmenghormati orang tua. Well... tu x penting kot, apa yang buat aku sedih ialah bila KAU ckp xguna aku ada degree. Memang aku x boleh terima. Ada kau tau macamana aku nak abeskan semester terakhir ni? Ko xtau kan. Ini aku nak cerita.




Satu hari tu selepas seminggu atok mak keluar dari Hospital Batu Pahat. Atok Mak, Atok Bak n Pokda came to Pakngah house. Ibu suruh aku ke sana. Aku turut je permintaan ibu. Sampai sana, Atok mak don’t seem like usual. Atok Mak nampak sangat letih n meracau selalu. Dia mengadu dada dia sakit. Atok Bak can’t sleep n always terjaga sapu minyak angin kat dada atok mak.(do u have ur husband to do that?) i slept there for two days. Thursday came. Atok mak condition had gone worst. Pakngah n Atok bak had to sent her to Hospital. I tag along. Atok mak lied on my shoulder. Pity her. At that time. I dun even have time to bath. So it is an emergency. We reached Hospital Putrajaya n my granny kena masuk emergency room because she had trouble breathing. I sat outside with Atok Bak n Pakngah. Pakngah went out for a while looking for parking. Atok Bak was so panic all he want me to do is tell his children. I called all of them. Nobody could come as early because all of them are working. I understand atok bak’s feelings. He wants his beloved children by his side with him. And then. Somebody called..”waris Pn Bainon”...i panic right away. Is sumthing wrong with my atok mak? Atok Bak went in. About ten minutes later dia keluar. Atok bak was so sad..dia macam nak rebah. For the first time, i saw my grandad cry. I really couldn’t forget that time. And i thought something bad might had happened inside. He sat beside..trying his best to smile and wipe his tears. He said.. “Atok mak xda apa. Kejap lagi keluar”. I know my grandpa loves his wife so much. A hour later. I went in to see my grandma. She looks alright. She imidiately told the same story she told atok bak.

Atok Mak said : tadi..muka atok mak pucat. Atok mak tgk semua putih. Lepas tu, ramai betul doktor keliling atok mak. Semua suruh atok mak mengucap. Atok mak xleh bercakap. Tapi atok mak boleh dengar semua orang. Atok mak cakap dalam hati. Kenapa doktor ni cakap macam tu? Atok mak dah nak mati ke?...

I couldn’t let her to see my tears. I smile and i tell her a joke. “sheila belum mandi ni tok mak.” She laughed... my heart couldn’t bear to see her in this condition. And from her story...now i knew..



WHY MY ATOK BAK CRIED...



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